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I've forgotten what it feels like to be normal.
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wThursday, April 03, 2003 |
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"I gotta find peace of mind
I know another cord...
I gotta find peace of mind
See, this what that voice in your head says
When you try to get peace of mind...
I gotta find peace of mind, I gotta find peace of mind
He says it's impossible, but I know it's possible
...please help me forget about him
He takes all my energy, trapped in my memory
Constantly holding me, constantly holding me
I need to tell you all, all the pain he's caused, mmmm
I need to tell I'm, I'm undone because, mmmm
He says it's impossible, but I know it's possible
To finally be in love, and know the real meaning of
A lasting relationship, not based on ownership
I trust every part of you, cuz all that I... All that you say you do
You love me despite myself, sometimes I fight myself
I just can't believe that you, would have anything to do
With someone so insecure, someone so immature
Oh you inspire me, to be the higher me
You made my desire pure, you made my desire pure
Just tell me what to say, I can't find the words to say
Please don't be mad with me, I have no identity
All that I've known is gone, all I was building on
I don't wanna walk with you, how do I talk to you
Touch my mouth with your hands, touch my mouth with your hands
Oh I wanna understand, the meaning of your embrace
I know now I have to face, the temptations of my past
Please don't let me disgrace, where my devotion lays
Now that I know the truth, now that it's no excuse
Keeping me from your love, what was I thinking of?
Holding me from your love, what was I thinking of?
You are my peace of mind, that old me is left behind
He says it's impossible, but I know it's possible
He says it's improbable, but I know it's tangeable
He says it's not grabbable, but I know it's haveable
Cuz anything's possible, oh anything is possible
Please come free my mind, please come meet my mind
Can you see my mind, oh
Won't you come free my mind?
Oh I know it's possible
Anything, anything, anything, anything, anything,
Oh free! Free, free, free your mind
Free, free your mind... free, free your mind
Free, free, free, free your mind
Oh, it's so possible, oh it's so possible
I'm telling you it's possible, I'm telling you it's possible
Free, free... free, free... free, free... get free now
Free, free... free, free, free, free... free, free
You're my peace of mind, that old me is left behind
You're my peace of mind, you're my peace of mind
He's my peace of mind, he's my peace of mind
What a joy it is to be alive
To get another chance, yeah
Everyday's another chance
To get it right this time
Everyday's another chance
Oh what a merciful, merciful, merciful God"
- Lauryn Hill
Gotta love that Lauryn Hill. So now i shall retreat to my soul - searching. Do not miss me too much. I shall return, when i dont hate myself so much and i've learned more...
posted by
Laura at 10:38 PM
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wWednesday, April 02, 2003 |
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My Learnings today.
1) Sometimes, kids just need to be held and hugged. No talking necessary. Heh. Today was my baby Lydia's birthday, and while she was so happy the first hour, she got all sad the second. At which she just crawled into my lap and rested her beautiful little head on my shoulder and wrapped her adorable little arms around my neck and just ....sat. I asked her whats wrong, but i believe her exact words were " mmrmmRrrmmmnnnommrr" heh. But then after about 30 minutes, she felt better and proceeded to make me so happy in ways i never thought possible.
2) when hungry and waiting an hour for a smog check, sharing a handful of peanut m&m's really means a whole lot. =)
3) one friendly smile passed your way can warm your heart throughout the day. ( oOohoo ! Im a poet ! )
4) Thinking is good. Thinking is very good. I was just mad at myself. Maybe i still am, but not as much.
5) Thinking on concepts relative to the class is necessary.....but thinking on non-relative concepts is so much more fun. Like thinking that the occasional "sex" and "penis" thrown into an Ethnic Minorities lecture really brightens things up. Then proceeding to wish somebody had Tourettes syndrome...and the really profane kind too would definitely spice things up. ( heh, yui, we are not very realistic)
6) Time to reflect on yourself might be painful, but absolutely necessary.
Maybe i shall follow up on #6 later on. For now, i need more time to myself...heh...to reflect on..........my developmental character as a modern social run-away.....
P.S. I just recently watched Ocean's Eleven again. Although i try to formulate where the bags come from, I just dont know where the marked bags that go into the white van come from if the only ones down there are Amazing, Danny and Matt Damon ( i forget his characters name ) . I just dont know where they got those bags to send up the elevator for Terry's guys to chase when the FBI friends arrive there after the bags have already been sent. Where did they get the bags? Have i just discovered a blooper? I dont think so...but WHERE did they get those bags? I know they didnt carry it down there.....Hmmm...
posted by
Laura at 11:39 PM
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wTuesday, April 01, 2003 |
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Ü
"Let's take it nice and easy
It's gonna be so easy
For us to fall in love
Hey baby what's your hurry
Relax and don't you worry
We're gonna fall in love
We're on the road to romance - that's safe to say
But let's make all the stops along the way
The problem now of course is
To simply hold your horses
To rush would be a crime
'Cause nice and easy does it every time"
=)<33
Two things I learned today :
1) Kids are painfully honest.
example : my little baby Lydia has a cold. I was correcting her homework when i hear her sniffle and she wipes her nose. Then, i hear her lips smacking. Disgusted, I look at her, and before i say anything, she says, " I know you think i ate my booger water, but i didnt". So i look at her and say " so what did you eat?" and she says " okay, so i ate my booger water, and i know you think its yucky, but i can't help it ! to me its so tasty ! " At which i pondered when exactly do human beings learn how to lie out of social etiquette....and then i pondered what a tragic blessing it is.
2) When dining at restaurants, you should either a) wear a turtle neck or b) tuck your napkin into your shirt because my waiter friend told me thats the prime opportunity to look down a girl's shirt. =P
posted by
Laura at 10:49 PM
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wSunday, March 30, 2003 |
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I'm TWO decades OLD ! (almost ! )
YAYAYAYAYAYAY !!
i keep getting older, but i dont seem to be getter smarter.
Hmmm....
But yes, i had a great time last night ! What are some things i learned last night?
Italian Food in a Loud Family style setting = get ready for fun !
When Jen continues to play with meatballs = she's substituting for that missing part of her life...*ahem*
Jen = a very fobby ssullung weirdo who doesnt know how to spell Scotland.
Jenny = german-engineered precision UBER-bowler
Laura = weakling that really sucks at bowling.
That guy at sport center = forgot to wear his pants and the rest of his clothes for that matter, and apparent was NOT very cold
Alice = on the verge of death who spared her last hours to celebrate my birthday and wasnt even able to eat
Tracy = has a very menacing bark
Yui = bony butt and likes to hug car doors.
Yui = unusually large breasts pressed up against you when 6 full grown adults decide to pile into one car tickles when she breathes.
Jen and Jenny = are trance music freaks
Jenny = has such long arms that she likes to wave around and clap through the moonroof and window and shout "YEAHHH THE LAKERS WON" to every unsuspecting passerby.
Button Pants = not a good decision to wear when dining at large italian restaurant because of fear that said button shall pop off and take somebody's eye out.
Buca's Caesar Salad = does not include chicken, but apparently, has false chicken in the form of croutons
Buca's Caesar Salad = is Greek food, according to Alice
Buca's Caesar Salad = is apparently Roman, not because Caesar was roman, but because they use Romaine lettuce, according to Jen.
Buca's raw slices or Garlic = make for very offensive speech, literally.
Yui, Jenn, Tracy, Alice and Jenny + Me = One helluva great time.
=) yay to me.
posted by
Laura at 7:45 PM
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