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wMonday, October 14, 2002 What’s the Big Deal with Breasts, anyway? I decided to see my doctor after a couple weeks of these odd little aches in my breasts. After examining me, my doctor told me that my breasts were growing. It seemed very bizarre to me, because i’m 19, and i thought i was done with the whole development thing. He explained it to me, and then it made sense. You have to understand, i grew up with two brothers, and it was hard being the odd one out. So when these weird little things started poking up out of my shirt, i taped ‘em down. And hard. I made every effort to not have them poke out of my shirt. Turns out, i stunted their growth. Anyway, back to what the doctor said. They were growing??? In a heartbeat, i grew excited......but then i had to consider why. Why would i even WANT bigger breasts, so i could attract all that attention that i DONT want? So i got kind of sad. What’s the big deal with breasts? I mean, i know women used to do a good job of covering em up, so then they might have been the least bit intriguing... but now they are just everywhere ! Big ones, small ones, EVERYWHERE ! just begging for your eyes to wander all over them so they could slap you over the head for looking at them. Women with big ones want smaller ones, women with small ones want bigger ones....... ok. Here’s the part where i can’t make fun of these women. Because (when i was in that bad relationship that i might tell you about ) i was one of those women. I always felt my breasts were inadequate and longed for these huge breasts that it seemed like he was so obsessed with. Of course, it wasnt anything he said or did that made me feel inadequate, it’s just the type of guy he was, the things he was interested in. But now that i’m out of that relationship....i recaptured the good relationship i had with my breasts. ( yay ! ) Maybe it’s a radical opposition to the current state of media frenzy about the size of perfect breasts...maybe i’m just being retarded...but i started taping my breasts down again. As much as it would have made me happy 6 months ago to have larger breasts, that is no longer my wish, and i don’t want them to grow as the doctor said they would. It just attracts unneccessary attention to yourself. Hey, while i’m on the subject...what’s the deal with the current obsession with asian women? the “slanted eyes”? yes, we look different,yes, its exotic....but WE’VE BEEN AROUND FOR CENTURIES !! are you just starting to notice that now? ( by the way, devon aoki has one of the most beautiful faces i have ever seen....she almost makes me question my sexuality =X JUST KIDDING ! ) anyways, too tired of dealing with these creeps that are obsessed with the asian/tahitian/egyptian WHATEVER beautiful girls, i started wearing these very frumpy froufy glasses. Yes, i am going through one HELLUVA phase....but if you’re my friend, you’ll love me anyway.... i hope. =) please stick with me.....cuz...... you know you cant live without me....(please stop trying to deny it ) hehehe posted by Laura at 11:21 PM